1. |
Lost
04:14
|
|||
I need to push it back, push it back again
I was lost in the ocean
I never knew that I could swim this far
I was lost in devotion
I never thought that I would fall for this but I gave away my heart
But I gave away my heart
(I gave away my heart)
In these darkened days
I've got nothing left to hold on
But the morning rays
Are telling me to stay strong
(They are telling me)
How did I get myself into this wreck?
I never thought I'd push myself this far, so I keep asking
How did I lose myself and how do I live on like this?
I need to push it back, push it back again
I need to push it back again
I need to push it back
Maybe I look like I am fine
But take a look, you will see that I lost my spine
I feel so numb
I don't wanna be the person that I've become
In these darkened days
I've got nothing left to hold on
But the morning rays
Are telling me to stay strong
How did I get myself into this wreck?
I never thought I'd push myself this far, so I keep asking
How did I lose myself and how do I live on like this?
I need to push it back, push it back again
Even when I find myself in these darkened days
I leave these scars behind before my mind decays
Even when I find myself in these darkened days
I leave these scars behind before my mind decays
Even when I find myself in these darkened days
I leave these scars behind before my mind decays
How did I get myself into this wreck?
How did I get myself into this wreck?
I never thought I'd push myself this far, so I keep asking
How did I lose myself and how do I live on like this?
I need to push it back, push it back again
|
||||
2. |
Believe
03:46
|
|||
I believe there is another way
That I could carry on
Even though I understand
I'm trembling, all alone
I believe you know what's best for you
But who am I to say
That I would rather die if it could make
If it could make you stay?
Believe me, I have tried
To forget the words you said
We are running out of time
But a long road lies ahead
From day to day
And every night that's passed
I feel you fade away
And only memories will last
Every word you say
Could be the last that I receive (That I receive)
So save your breath and please
Please don't make me grieve
I believe there is another way
That I could carry on
Even though I understand
I'm trembling, all alone
I believe you know what's best for you
But who am I to say
That I would rather die if it could make
If it could make you stay?
Show me a way to make it easier
For me to call it truth
How much of me will there be left
If there is no more me in you?
After all these years we had
I grew strong myself
And I learned how to live
You were the best of all the gifts
Every word you say
Could be the last that I receive (That I receive)
So save your breath and please
Please don't make me grieve
I believe there is another way
That I could carry on
Even though I understand
I'm trembling, all alone
I believe you know what's best for you
But who am I to say
That I would rather die if it could make
If it could make you stay?
Believe me, I have tried
To forget the words you said
We are running out of time
But a long road lies ahead
Every word you say
Could be the last that I receive
So save your breath and please
Please don't make me grieve
I believe there is another way
That I could carry on
Even though I understand
I'm trembling, all alone
I believe you know what's best for you
But who am I to say
That I would rather die if it could make
If it could make you stay?
|
||||
3. |
Revivor
04:10
|
|||
I had a childhood full of love
I grew up with a family that's been watching me from above
I went to school, I made new friends
They told me that friendship never ends
So they started talking and my friends stabbed me in the back
So my innocent soul got its first crack
So I started asking, asking myself
"What did I do to deserve this?"
I could say that I'm a mess
But instead I made the choice that I don't deserve this
And they, they ripped my heart out of my chest
But I made my choice, so now I let you hear my voice
I fell into an endless hole made of tears
Cried by my lost and shattered soul
Even if they knew that I was fucking down
They were spitting into my face, wishing that I would drown
So I decided to make their wish come true
I couldn't take what I was going through
So I took a wire and put it around my neck
At the age of ten, this could have been my end
I could say that I'm a mess
But instead I made the choice that I don't deserve this
And they, they ripped my heart out of my chest
But I made my choice, so now I let you hear my voice
So I started asking, asking myself
"What did I do to deserve this?"
This could have been my end but I chose the right way
And these scars could mend
I know that I could say that my life is all a mess
But the experience of it turned out for all the best
I know that I could say that my life is all a mess
But the experience of it turned out for all the best
I could say that I'm a mess
But instead I made the choice that I don't deserve this
And they, they ripped my heart out of my chest
But I made my choice, so now I let you hear my voice
|
||||
4. |
Lifeline
04:00
|
|||
I can't give up on me
I've been searching for a reason
For me to carry on
I drank this poison but I kept believing
That I can find a place where I belong
You gave me something
That I cannot describe
And I finally felt like
I can leave this mess behind
I can't give up
I can't give up
I can't give up on me
I know that I'm not done
Until the world will know that my life has just begun
I can't give up
I can't give up on me
It's hard to remember the good times
When there is so much pain
I never told you but you were my lifeline
So I let you know that your life was not in vain
What if I never reached the place
Where I used to go?
You were always the light in my cave
But now I light the candles on your grave
I can't give up
I can't give up
I can't give up on me
I know that I'm not done
Until the world will know that my life has just begun
I can't give up
I can't give up on me
You gave me something
That I cannot describe
And I finally felt like
I can leave this mess behind
I know that I'm not done
Until the world will know that my life has just begun
I can't give up
I can't give up on me
I can't give up
I can't give up
I can't give up on me
I know that I'm not done
Until the world will know that my life has just begun
I can't give up
I can't give up on me
|
||||
5. |
Nightfall
05:07
|
|||
So give in, I know the dawn is the bitter end
So I put my mask on and I start to pretend
To be someone I ain't never gonna be again
Every minute from the morning till the sun goes down
I know that inside of me, it's a fucking ghost town
And anyone with half a heart wouldn't let me drown
I know I can't breathe
While the sunlight hurts my eyes (Sunlight hurts my eyes)
I know I can't live
Until the moon will arise
I am living in the night
When I watch the stars fall down
When they crash into the ground
With every breath, with every breath I take
I am feeling alive and know that I'm awake
So please, make this an everlasting night
I'm wondering, could I ever get my feelings back?
This empty shell is like a noose around my neck
I am nothing but a huge creaking wreck
I'm falling deeper and deeper into this hole I dug
And took a double dose of this deadly drug
But during the night I know, I know I won't get stuck
I know I can't breathe
While the sunlight hurts my eyes (Sunlight hurts my eyes)
I know I can't live
Until the moon will arise
I am living in the night
When I watch the stars fall down
When they crash into the ground
With every breath, with every breath I take
I am feeling alive and know that I'm awake
So please, make this an everlasting night
I know I can't breathe
While the sunlight hurts my eyes (While the sunlight hurts my eyes)
I know I can't live
Until the moon will arise (The moon will arise)
Oh hello, shooting stars up in the sky
You reveal the beauty of this
You reveal the beauty of this world
Oh hello, shooting stars up in the sky
You give me the strength I need
The strength I need to survive
Oh hello, shooting stars up in the sky
You reveal the beauty of this
You reveal the beauty of this world
Oh hello, shooting stars up in the sky
You give me the strength I need
The strength I need to survive
'Cause I'm not ready to die
I am living in the night
When I watch the stars fall down
When they crash into the ground
With every breath, with every breath I take
I am feeling alive and know that I'm awake
So please, make this an everlasting night
Make this an everlasting night
|
||||
6. |
My Distress
03:21
|
|||
I felt like I finally had it all in my hands
You gave me so much strength and now all this ends
I stare into your wide open eyes
I can't move, I am shocked, I am paralyzed
When I look back now, my life has always been a mess
But you, you were the helping hand in my distress
The time is standing still
As I'm screaming down the hill, we're frozen here in time
I can't hear a sound other than my heart
Which is shattered on the ground, shattered on the ground
You always seemed like you've been walking on the air
But deep inside of you, you were screaming from despair
Ever since the day you died
I can't leave this moment behind
When I held you in my arms
And your body was still warm
Oh God
I should have seen what's going on
And now you're gone
And now you're gone
When I look back now, my life has always been a mess
But you, you were the helping hand in my distress
The time is standing still
As I'm screaming down the hill, we're frozen here in time
I can't hear a sound other than my heart
Which is shattered on the ground, shattered on the ground
Shattered on the ground
|
||||
7. |
Honesty
01:37
|
|||
The summer of 2003, after the mania ending, the depression, like, I tried to do, I mean, I was still in school. But I tried to do some part-time work, and, it wasn't happening. It was too, overwhelming. 'Cause that's one of the major things with depression, uh... that I've experienced. It's just this really crippling sense of being overwhelmed. By things that aren't even my responsibility. I remember driving with my mom places and we'd be going to the grocery store or something, and we'd drive by a construction site, and suddenly I would just feel... crushed by the, the thought of having to go to this construction site! It's like, why?? It's not even my responsibility. And so, actually having any responsibility was out of the question. So that's how [?] it could not work out. But after... the hospitalization, [?]. From that point forward, I've been able to work pretty consistently. But the upside of being very upfront with my s-, my bosses and my supervisors has been that, I mean, 'cause I [?]. I would say, "Hey. I need [?]. So, I'm gonna take this day off because I have to take this medication, and because of this medication, I won't be able to work this day." Um, so you know. Kind of like managing any other medical issue. With depression a lot of times I'll tell my employers, "I'm... having a tough time right now." It doesn't usually impair my ability to work, but... it affects me and I still have to be honest with them about what's going on.
|
||||
8. |
Fading
04:14
|
|||
I can feel your hand
Buried deep down inside my chest
You are holding my Heart
So you can push the dark aside
Who knew that it would come so far
That I am sitting here
Staring at my scars
(I'm fading, I'm fading)
You ripped the skin off of my arms
So you can see my veins
Cut me open
To check if I'm alive,
And then I hear your voice again
(Your voice)
Screaming that these days will end
Who are you to say that you can help me before I fade away?
(I'm fading, I'm fading)
And Who are you to say that I should listen?
But I guess I should admit that you're a part of me
But I guess I should admit that you're a part of me
I know I shouldn't walk away
I should stop and now return
You are there, so I can change myself
But I guess I'll never learn
And then I hear your voice again
(Your voice)
Screaming that these days will end
Who are you to say that you can help me before I fade away?
(I'm fading, I'm fading)
And Who are you to say that I should listen?
But I guess I should admit that you're a part of me
Who are you to say that you can help me before I fade away?
(I'm fading, I'm fading)
And Who are you to say that I should listen?
But I guess I should admit that you're a part of me
I can feel your hand
Buried deep down inside my chest
(I'm fading, I'm fading)
You are holding my Heart
So you can push the dark aside
Who are you to say that you can help me before I fade away?
(I'm fading, I'm fading)
And Who are you to say that I should listen?
But I guess I should admit that you're a part of me
Who are you to say that you can help me before I fade away?
(I'm fading, I'm fading)
And Who are you to say that I should listen?
But I guess I should admit that you're a part of me
|
||||
9. |
December
04:16
|
|||
It must have been hours that I spent
Walking through this town and it never ends
I was staring right into your eyes
When I lied and said that I'll be back by sunrise
I know that I am not the strongest person, no
Oh God, give me the strength to finally let go
Yeah, to finally let go
The days are fading
I can feel that it's December
The snow is covering my heart
And the cold is crawling up my veins
This winter is something
That I always will remember
Days will come and days will go
But my soul is trapped beneath the snow
My soul is trapped beneath the snow
My soul is trapped beneath the
I can feel the liquor burning
Running down my throat
Maybe it will help to numb the pain
While writing down this note
I never said goodbye
But I got nothing left this time
Even though you'd deserve a farewell
But there is nothing left that I could tell
After all this time
I'm still breathing, I'm still breathing
So why did I ever
Ever stop believing, ever stop believing?
The days are fading
I can feel that it's December
The snow is covering my heart
And the cold is crawling up my veins
This winter is something
That I always will remember
Days will come and days will go
But my soul is trapped beneath the snow
After all this time, I'm still breathing
So why did I ever stop believing?
I'm moving on, I can proudly say that I made it until here
Now I got the chance to prove myself another year
I know that I am not the strongest person, no
Oh God, give me the strength
Now I can finally let go
The days are fading
I can feel that it's December
The snow is covering my heart
And the cold is crawling up my veins
This winter is something
That I always will remember
Days will come and days will go
But my soul is trapped beneath the snow
|
||||
10. |
Heartbeat
03:49
|
|||
Hand to my heart
This is where I have to begin
Will I ever really search what's my heartbeat
When it even hurts me in my sleep
I feel the pressure rising from the inside
Crawling to the surface [?]
My throat is sore and I can't breathe
[?] getting tired of the [?]
We've lost the way, pull me beneath
Break my heart so I can breathe
It's like [?] of this world again
This fucking fear is like it never ends
I try to run, I try to run from myself
But I am in fear of the fear itself
But I am in fear of the fear itself
From all I bleed, from all I suffocate
They're telling me I can't escape my fate
Your eyes are closed, I latch my stand in there
And even thoug I'm drowning in dispair
We're tired and broken, not giving in
I know this [?] will rise from within
Get my hopes up [?]
But my heart keeps on pounding within my throat
My throat is sore and I can't breathe
[?] getting tired of the [?]
We've lost the way, pull me beneath
Break my heart so I can breathe
It's like [?] of this world again
This fucking fear is like it never ends
I try to run, I try to run from myself
But I am in fear of the fear itself
But I am in fear of the fear itself
Please get me out before
I find the strength to cut me loose from this craze
[?] giving in
I tell my heart this is where I have to begin
This fucking fear is like it never ends
I try to run, I try to run from myself
But I am in fear of the fear itself
[?] of this world again
This fucking fear is like it never ends
I try to run, I try to run from myself
But I am in fear of the fear itself
|
||||
11. |
The Unknown
04:49
|
|||
I'm standing on the roofs of this town
It's like I'm at the edge of the earth, where endless roads go down
How can I be so alone?
And in this way too crowded town
I am doomed to be the unknown
How can I be so alone?
I've been standing here for hours
Right on the top of this house
A lot of people passing by
And there is nothing that they care about
I mean, how can they ignore
That I'm about to jump and hit the floor?
This town is full of faces staring down
So I am drowning in the crowd
And all that I have left is just this view
And I know that this is true
I'm standing on the roofs of this town
It's like I'm at the edge of the earth, where endless roads go down
How can I be so alone?
And in this way too crowded town
I am doomed to be the unknown
How can I be so alone?
How can I be so alone?
How can I be so alone?
The sun is setting now and the air is cooling down
I can see the faces that they have never shown
I mean, how can they just try
To let the whole world pass 'em by
This town is full of faces staring down
So I am drowning in the crowd
And all that I have left is just this view
And I know that this is true, I know that this is true
I'm standing on the roofs of this town
It's like I'm at the edge of the earth, where endless roads go down
How can I be so alone?
And in this way too crowded town
I am doomed to be the unknown
How can I be so alone?
How can I be so alone?
How can I be so alone?
I'm standing on the roofs of this town
It's like I'm at the edge of the earth, where endless roads go down
How can I be so alone?
And in this way too crowded town
I am doomed to be the unknown
How can I be so alone?
And in this way too crowded town
I am not doomed to be the unknown
I know that I won't be alone
I know that I won't be alone
|
||||
12. |
Nightfall (Piano)
05:24
|
Arising Empire Hamburg, Germany
We're Arising Empire.
Independent music company.
Home of heavy music.
Streaming and Download help
If you like Lifeline, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp